My mom is still about the same. The doctors are waiting for her kidneys to stabilize so they can run a dye test to her heart to see where the blockage is coming from. It is just one day at a time to see how she responds. I think the biggest thing I am in touch with from the events of this week is that I am not prepared for my mom to die. She is 82 and has been in pretty good health so I have not had to think about the reality of her passing. In many ways this is the beginning of her body shutting down. It could be soon or she could have a few good years left. We don't know yet. This morning I woke up and I'm not sure I was dreaming but I immediately was taken to a time with my mom. I think I must have been around 4 years old. It was before I went to school. I remember sitting on the floor, eating my lunch, a tuna sandwich and watching a local t.v. show "Wanda Wanda" my mom was ironing and then she put me down for a nap. My mom must have been in her mid 30's...she was younger than I am now...I would imagine in the days to come as my mom is on my mind I will be in touch with many memories...
Thanks for everyone's prayers, for my mom and for my family.
Monday, March 14, 2005
My mom just turned 82. She has been in pretty good health. Late Saturday night she was having a hard time breathing. She called my sister to come over, then called an aid car to take her to the hospital. She has congestive heart failure, and she had a heart attack. They don't know how severe the damage was to her heart yet or what is causing the blockage. They have her on meds to drain fluid that has formed in her lung cavity and they have to decide if they are going to do any surgery to see what's causing the blockage to her heart. We should know more from the doctors today.